some friends and our children met us at the airport. bella's name was spelled out in large letters. there were balloons. but it was the faces of my children i will always remember. i am not sure i've ever seen smiles that big. we couldn't hug each other tight enough. close enough. long enough. in the last few days before leaving china i was really struggling. i was missing them so much it seemed physical. i longed for them. i longed to see them with bella. i could feel that longing in my limbs, in my shoulders, in my back. my hands almost ached for wanting to touch them. as i write this, i think it sounds kind of weird...but that's just how it felt. when i was able to finally have them in my arms i couldn't get enough of them. there was one moment in the airport where i had all three girls in my arms and i felt the ache begin to loosen. and then began the celebration of their union with bella. unbelieveable joy. it was hardly containable. after traveling for more than a day we were heavily draped in exhaustion but there was this crazy exhiliration which kept bubbling up all day as i would watch all five kids together. it seemed like we were moving through a dream. i had dreamt many times of this very day and so it was this strange deja vu kind of thing. i was captivated by all of it.
|bella fashion by emily|