and so we wait. i have to confess, this is something i am not particularly good at. i mean i am really not good at it - at all. i could tattoo the verse,"WAIT upon the Lord" across my forehead and am certain it would make little difference. not to mention, my children would be ridiculously embarrassed if their mom showed up with
a tattoo across her forehead, or in any other place, for that matter.
september 9th we turned in our home study paperwork. was that only two weeks ago? we are waiting to have it reviewed so that we can begin the next step of applying to CIS for immigration. we are still very much at the beginning of this journey. perhaps that is the thing making me feel so restless this wednesday morning. i know how much further we have to go. and no amount of my typical running or rushing will make much a difference.
friends, i also know, that this is only one of the many lessons this adoption will be teaching us (okay...me). is it possible that God is using even this time of waiting to refine, polish and prepare our family for this next step? we have friends from college who are in china right now bringing home their 4th child. they have just wrapped their arms around their gracie. i woke this morning to find a facebook post and blog about their journey. i was so thankful for the reminder that at the end of all this paperwork and at the end of all this waiting is a little girl in china also waiting. waiting for her family.
a tattoo across her forehead, or in any other place, for that matter. september 9th we turned in our home study paperwork. was that only two weeks ago? we are waiting to have it reviewed so that we can begin the next step of applying to CIS for immigration. we are still very much at the beginning of this journey. perhaps that is the thing making me feel so restless this wednesday morning. i know how much further we have to go. and no amount of my typical running or rushing will make much a difference.
friends, i also know, that this is only one of the many lessons this adoption will be teaching us (okay...me). is it possible that God is using even this time of waiting to refine, polish and prepare our family for this next step? we have friends from college who are in china right now bringing home their 4th child. they have just wrapped their arms around their gracie. i woke this morning to find a facebook post and blog about their journey. i was so thankful for the reminder that at the end of all this paperwork and at the end of all this waiting is a little girl in china also waiting. waiting for her family.
I find the waiting to be so difficult...probably so good for me...but growth is never painless. Now that we have a referral, a name, pictures...I've found it much more difficult. He is ours, but he is spending nights in an orphanage as I tuck my other little ones snugly in their beds here. The waiting is not easy...hang in there.
ReplyDeleteThe wait is so painful. So many times I felt like God was asking too much of me. To give me a picture of this little girl and then to have to endure the wait with unexpected and unexplainable delays. I was often reminded that Jesus was asked to endure too much. Our circumstances always look different when held up to the cross. I held onto Isaiah 43:19. It says, See I am doing a new thing! The I doesn't mean me but HIM. He is doing this thing! Also Isaiah 43:5 Do not be afraid, for I am with you; I will bring your children from the east and gather you from the west. Your family and baby Zhang are in your prayers. Rob and Casie Fisher
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